Somebody Please Help Me

Something horrible's happened in my house. No, the pets didn't die. No, I didn't slit my wrists or jump out the window or anything dramatic like that.

Victor, my stepfather, is leaving us.

It's all because Mom is being fooled by some goddamn Israeli shitheads, and she's so wrapped up in her own little horse life, she doesn't see that Victor was trying to protect her. And guess what? She called him a CRIMINAL, for DESTROYING HER LIFE. So I woke up this morning, went down for some tea, and found Victor telling me that the wedding is off and he's going back to Rome tomorrow. Great way to start the day, wouldn't you agree?
I feel like my insides have been reduced to cinders. This guy's lived with us ever since I was 13. He really was starting to become like a dad to me, FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. And this horrid country took him away. All because my mom's too blind to see the truth.

You know what? EAT ME, ISRAEL!

I HATE this country! It is the most disgusting, vulgar, RACIST country I have EVER had the misfortune of finding myself in! If it wasn't for JAIS (my school), I'd burn this place to the ground and fucking go home to England! Here, I-I can't even tell you guys how it is! Basically, in this country, if you're not Jewish, you're dirt! You're slime! You don't deserve to be here! Well FUCK YOU ISRAEL! I don't wanna be here anyway! I wanna be in England, with my FRIENDS!

One final sentence, then I'll leave you guys alone: I'd rather be a dog than an Israeli.